Indafe amma az daneshgahe khodam nist balke az haman TU Delft hast ke qablan goftam. Emruz sobh kea z khane be tarafe daneshgah rah oftadam awwal sare rah yek daste gol gereftam wa hamrah ba CD be hasine jan dadam. In CD chandin hafte bud ke daste man bud wa man harooz sharmandetar az dirooz nemishod ke be hasine jan bedaham.

Baad dar istgahe tram be pirzane mehrabani barkhordam. Pirzan lebas hayi kohne be tan dasht wa az chadaraki ( roosariyi) ke be sar dasht mishod fahmid ke mosalman ast. Shoro be harf zadan kard. Dar ye negah dorost hads zad ke ahle afghanestan hastam.

Khodash az Bosni bood. Towri ke tarif mikard haft farzand dashte ke ham era jelooye cheshmansh sar boridan wa hala tako tanha mande. Aknoon dar khaneye yek mosalmane marakeshi mikhabad wa az rahe sadaqe khordo khorakash ra be dast miawarad! Hamintoor ke gerye konan halo roozash ra tariff mikard nasihaty kard: “hamishe takbir begoo, takbir khoobast. Yek rooz ke be ma hamle kardan hameye ma zano mard bozorgo koochak yekseda be takbir goftan shodim “allaho akbar” wa hameye sarbazha az tars farar kardan.”

Taqazaye pool nakard wa man ham chizi nadadam. Albate bishtar az panj euro ham nadashtam ke an ra ham shadidan niaz dashtam. Wali agar taqaza mikard midadam. Waqty didam nemikhahad nakhastam kari konam ke be oo bar bokhorad.

Residam daneshgah. Tamem rah be an zane pir fekr mikardam. Baad az chand sa’at dars khandan kami tafrih gereftam wa be interviewe diroozi ke az man pakhsh shode bud negah kardam. Kheili shokke shodam. Albate na az didane khodam.

Interview darbare hazrate Zahra (s) wa jaygahe oo dar dine eslam bud. Hamrah ba man do shakhse digar ham jodagane interview shode budand. Yeki yek eslamshenase hollandi bud digari yek newisandeye zan az mahzabe sonni wa man az mazhabe shié. Chizi ke baese shokke shodane man shode bud harfhayi bud ke an zane newisande darbareye hazrate fateme mizad alalkhosoos dar rabete ba ezdewaje ishan. O gofte ke hazrate fateme dar zendegi moshtarakash ba hazrate Ali moshkelate ziadi dashte wa chandinbar ba shekwe wa shekayat be khaneye pedarash bazgashte. Wali peiambar oo ra dobare be khaneye hazrate Ali bargardande wa gofte ke dokhtaram to bayad Sabr koni wa saboor bashi. Bela fasele baad az in harfe newisande yeki az jomalate man ra gozashtan ke goftam: hazrate fateme dar zendegi moshkelate ziadi dide wa dar moqabeleshan sabro esteqamat karde. Wa be hamin dalil yek olgooye nemoone baraye tamame zanan hast.

Towri in do ra ba ham wasl kardan ke harkas bebinad fekr mikonad man ham hamaqide ba an newisande hastam. Baad an zan edame midahad ke baad az fowte Fateme showharash bud ke ejaze nadad baraye oo maraseme khaksepari gerefte shawad.

Gijo ta’ajjob zade mande am che konam. Az tarafi be sheddat asabiam ke tamarkozze hawasam az dast rafte wa az tarafi ehsase gonah mikonam. Chon hes mikonam dar misunderstanding darrabete ba hazrat wa a zendegiash man ham naqsh peida kardam.

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